Full-Blown Suffering: A Personal Struggle Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary weekday morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense sensation erupted behind my right eye. Then came rapid jolts, reminiscent of electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain eased and then came back with increased intensity. Four times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically begin with severe discomfort around one eye that persists up to several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Attacks usually start with abrupt, severe pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the figure dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like many triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Support finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan life around erratic attacks took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The earliest account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical records suggest unusual remedies for what some observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a separate condition, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel which delivers blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the condition note this.

In 1998, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for most of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misunderstood her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode passed.

Official guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals.

But consultant neurologists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the bout dictates the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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Steven Reilly
Steven Reilly

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